- The After-Diary
long long time agoooo ..
hey hey people !!! <3
how is it going all around the world ?? i know i know - it's been a long time since you heard from me and there were already people worrying about me - but i am fine, life is going on - christmas is coming closer and the only thing i LOVE right now is the german christmas, but today - when we were decorating our apartment for christmas i got a little bit sad, because i was like "damn - one year ago i was in vancity !!"
how are you guys ? let me know how you are ! - it's been a looooong long time ..
but i am kinda busy these days, not nescessarily with university, but with stuff - like all my weekends are completely full - this one for example i will go to a christmas fair with a couple of friends which is in another city - and from there i will go home which was a very spontaneuos idea of me - so the saturday i will be in my homeplace with my friend and i will go for a coffee with another friend and meet my brother and, if the weather is good, we will go to the zoo and sunday morning back to fulda - what a stressfull weekend 
the weekend after - well i should first say something about december 6th, because i dont know how it is in your countries, but here in germany we're celebrating the 6th of december as well let's call it the "st. nickolas" - day where you have to clean your shoes, out them in front of your door and if you were nice and if your shoes are clean then you get little presents, nothing big, just small things. - so the weekend of the 6th of december our "asshole" - roommate is going home so we have a free weekend - without assholy comments and stuff
then the following weekend my parents might come and we have a party here in the place and THEEEEN the last weekend before christmas my brother is coming for the weekend and december 22nd i am going home eventually to celebrate christmas with my family - same as new year's eve i guess -- pretty quiet .. dunno yet ..
well yeah so i will try to write once more and to be connected more frequently than i am right now !!
take care my friends and tell me how you are ! - i miss you guys so much and i love you guys !!! 
hey hey hey my dear people !!
long time no write - or something like that 
- but well things are getting more and more busy so its less and less time being spent in front of the PC --
right now i am in my parent's house until tomorrow - well tomorrow we're going to my sister, because yesterday was my nephew's birthday so we will visit them tomorrow and then saturday night i will go back to fulda - gotta go now !!
the "west packet" ..
.. (free translation by me - german: Westpaket )
well .. as you probably know there's not always been one whole, united germany - nazis, world war bla bla - germany lost, the Allies* seperated it in (i think originally 4 - french, english, american, russian - occupation zones - and later the french english and america became one) 2 parts - the western and the eastern - the "american" and the "russian" - like the structure of the countries were completely different, but i think most of u know ! - anyway .. families got seperated, because they lived some kilometres away from each other .
and then u can reduce it to - the people in western germany had everything they wanted whereas in eastern germany people had to for example line up when there were bananas - they didnt have bananas all the time - to get a car (a so called "Trabant" - it sometimes took 10 years.
and so the families who lived in the west sent the so called "westpakete" to their eastern relatives with all the stuff that was impossible to get there (well of course the stuff they were allowed to send).
yeap that was my short/ superficicial flight into history to explain WESTPAKETE
It's been a while ...
... and i would lie if i said that i was too busy to write !
as i already told some of you - i just didnt feel too "contacty" .. i gotta check if that word exists - cambridge dictionary says no, but well who would mind ?? - i dont
ya .. the last days/ weeks/ whatever were rather .. strange somehow. a blend of good and less good and almost bad feelings - even though its nescessary to say that actually thinking of vancity - times cant make a bad feelin, but a nostalgic !
yeah on the one hand i feel surprisingly good here in fulda !
nice people in general (apart of the typical germans ) and a cute town and well it even looks a bit international
but at the same time i have been thinking a lot about vancity and you guys !
seeing the pictures of those times on my screensaver - it just makes me sad somehow !!
but well i cant go on with all that whining over and over again, can i ??
let me rather talk a bit about my current life here !
last week we had the first semester party and well i did well - embarrassing myself 
but well - apart of screaming through the whole place that i am from eastern germany and blaming my roommate for being responsible for me being drunk .. nothing special so
and the next day there was a rock party - which was okay, but only because of the music, the people were so so - from cool ones to a lot of those who went there for whatever reason .. but it was good, even though we were only 3 girls !!
university itself - is going pretty okay ! so far
okay i gotta go now - it's lisa's birthday tomorrow - so stefan, nora and i will go to get a present (a west - packet) - i will explain that later
Krummenau, BWL, being clumsy, having fun :)
First to "unknown" 
- Florian i guess because u were mentioning krummenau and whoelse would be as proud of famous krummenau if not you well ya fulda IS nice !! but of course its not only what u just saw ! its also "city" centre and stuff around but i wasnt in a touristic feeling to be like taking pics of everything .. and honestly i miss being in a bigger city somehow !!
and nooow talking about my course - in german called BetriebsWirtschaftsLehre (BWL) and i just found out the probably correct name in english is business administration - and if anybody is wondering - YES it IS as boring as it sounds ! and today i got the proof that actually it cant be the right thing for me because one of my teachers said "BWL is just facts and figures and no emotions" - for people who know me know what that means ! NO EMOTIONS ?? -- well if that's really the right for me ?!
but i am SUPER HAPPY today !!! even though its grey outside and the day was crazy like me throwing stuff around being completely clumsy
but i feel good ! its a good day 
oh and yesterday i went out with some girls to a bar which was really nice !! and on friday hopefully i will be able to convince them to go to an oldies party
have a nice day you guys
The Quiet Time Of The Year ~~
The Autumn leaves are falling ~
red, brown, yellow, light green - the wind is playing with those the trees are not able to hold and also wants to get the ones that are still hanging.
It looks like a game - a game they're playing - they, the wind, the trees and the leaves.
But in fact it's a neverending circle, the circle of the year.
A sign that the summer is over now - the warm days are gone taking the green leaves with them.
Even though it's the same every year, it often seems hard to believe that there will be another spring, another summer.
Fulda is beautiful ! It's old and historical like many German cities (even though i wouldnt really call it a city) and the surrounding is nice, like a park a bit, nowhere i would walk around alone at night, but pretty nice during the day !! You can see the churches of Fulda and a cute little hill in the background.
And the colored trees are framing the picture. The picture of the lake with the ducks and the swans and the people cycling, jogging, walking with their families, fishing - all enjoying the last beautiful and warm days of the year.
It's days like today that seem to make you want to forget that the winter is coming. It's the days where the summer seems to fight again, to not want to give up yet. But the colored leaves tell that as in every year the summer has to go on vacation - if it wants to or not.
It's the days when I remain silent. The days when I got nothing to say. The days when I just want to be with people I love without having to say so much. The days when it makes me feel even better than usual to know that I am not alone. The days when I tend to forget that. The days when I walk alone outside to gather the last rays of sunshine. The days when I am not sad or depressed, because it's not winter yet. The days when I am just silent.
OH COME ON ! go and - aaaaargh
- home is where my friends are -
so THATS whats supposed to be my english class ?? EXCUSE ME ??
ya okay i might be a little bit having too many expectations especially after the classes in vancouver, BUT - i think in university the times of highschool teaching methods should be over ! - its supposed to be BUSINESS ENGLISH !! damn freakin shit -
but ya i am relaxing - people in computer stuff next week will probably also think DAMN WHAT ARE THEY TELLING ME !? - and me - no idea about that kinda stuff -
i dont feel like that kinda university program will lead me to where i will wanna find myself in life - but hey where do i wanna find myself ?? WHAT is my way ?
well - what can i say ? - GDR - thats the name of the former eastern germany - in english - using DDR in english .. telling us to speak english and think out loud in german - i am critizising a lot and i mean it is different if u have to speak english cause otherwise with ur own language nobody will understand you .. i wanna go home -
- home is where my friends are -
the first day, goals and all stuff like that
WEDNESDAY - OCTOBER the 8th !!
NEWSFLASH -
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server break down
CATASROPHE !!
blackout all around the world !!
caused in FULDA -
caused by - ......
NEWSFLASH BREAKDOWN
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Hello ?? 1.2.3. - test test test !!
here we are again ! - its horrible ! - the all around blackout will be the final cause for the implosion of the earth - which was started by some unexplainable experiments started in switzerland leading to the complete distruction of the earth !!!
its not sure how much time is left ! - between 5 minutes and some thousand years - but to save it for the future : its the fault of the swiss !
HEY HEY HEEEEEY !!
well i dont really know whats going on here - i lost the control somehow lol
well -
what did i wanna talk about again??
oh right ! - fulda and university and and and --
so on monday i had my first day. but it was rather some introductional stuff - so - well gooosh i dont know - i am not talkative these days. i think usually i could fill pages and pages talking about the last days, but still right now its rather like "YA whatever"
i think my batteries are empty somehow - getting sick, too - well the usual stuff -
sooo monday and tuesday introduction and today we had the first "class" thingy thing - mathmatics but as well rather intro stuff - tomorrow we're gonna get started - and also tomorrow and today we dont have statistics stuff because the teacher is sick - so my day tomorrow will be over (and with that day the whole week, as well) at 11.20 AM ! - yaaa --
time for parties and celebrations - people dancing all night long
time for presents and exchanging kisses - lalalaLAlalalaLA
i think its gonna be easy going - my dad coming tomorrow for an hr and then going to bed early and sleeping until i wake up sometime and if the weather is nice get to see some nice places - still stuff --
and i have a dedication again ! - and (how unfair that may seem) it's for Jérôme (again^^) - well a simple reason, being in Paris searching and not finding an apartment - so EVERYBODY ! reading this blog - just keep crossing ur fingers - no matter what it takes, if u can read/ eat/ write/ go/ sit or NOT ! - dont stop crossing ur fingers ;-) until the moment i tell u that u dont have to anymore ^^ thanks to u guys ^^
so well - nothing to say right now ! - a big huge hug for everybody ! <3<3<3