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HEY HEY HEY!!! 
hello and welcome to my blog - hehehe .. which I actually made for you guys that i was allowed to get to know during the last 9 months!!
During these 9 months I met a lot of great people from all around the world - amazing people, amazing friends!!
It was too great that I had the chance to go a part of my way with them - with you guys!!
And I so appreciate that I can call you guys my friends!!
This webblog is a way to try to be able to give a little -- to not have to care so much about the time difference 
yeah -- thats where you guys are -- everywhere and nowhere, but always here in my heart -- mmh kinda poetic, eh??
More about me...
When I was young...:
which i actually still am, but which i consider the time before canada -- i never expected that i could find something like i found over there!!
When I grow up...:
... grow what?? 
-- Then I'll hopefully think twice sometimes !
This week...:
- can't tell - is just as similar and different as any other 
I wish...:
that one day everybody finds what makes them happy! honest smiles are one of the most beautiful things in the world!
I believe...:
That if you Want, you Can!
I love...:
the sound of the waves of the ocean, especially at night when there's no one around, just the stars and the sea ~~
I welcome...:
... you guys -- either here or whenever you decide to come to Germany
Blog
Vancity again ...
Hey people !! :-)
Well what can I say ?
i am just listening to a couple of songs that - i would say remind me a bit too much right now of vancouver - just one example :
and it really really makes me feel -- mmh i dont know if i can say "sad" but it gives me a feelin that makes my stomach ache !!
it's like someone keeps on hitting it.
i think its a mixture of sadness, anger, happiness..
sadness for that the time itself in vancity is gone and therefore that i cant see u guys as much and frequently (or at all) just the way i'd love to,
anger, cause sometimes i think that i could've done so much more with you guys and also because i hate the fact that with some millions in my pockets i could just travel around as often and as much as i wanted to to meet you guys
and happiness, well i think u know what for !!
OH I MISS YOU GUYS SOOO SOOO MUCH - as i said it hurts so much that it hurts !!
things here are going okay - one last exam is missing next friday and then there'll be 10 weeks of vacation, including moving to the new apartment, meeting friends, watching the lion king musical, going on vacation to mallorca, spain..
yeah and then the third semester is starting already - and i am still not sure about what i am doing - i can tell u - i am not as happy as i could be - i dont know if its for my chosen course ..
i wish i'd be closer to u all !!
i miss you and the times together, as a family, as really close friends a lot !!
i love you !!!
As time goes by --
hey guys !!
oh my gosh ! - i mean when i stayed in canada i was blogging almost every day - and now ??
i guess it's not that nothing is happening here or nothing's going on - i think it's rather that in canada every moment or most moments seemed to be special somehow and here most things are - "just happening" - at least that's how i feel it is !
whoever thinks - "oh gosh she is still talking about canada - it's been over for almost a year" but yeah it still has a big impact on my life today.
and even though i am not connected a lot and not taking enough time for all the people from the time it doesn't mean that they/ you are forgotten - it's the contrary: i am even thinking a lot about you ! and i would be too glad to meet you again !!
in summer i am gonna move to another apartment - just alex and me, because living with a third guy you don't even really like can be pretty annoying after a time !
but still we didn't find a fitting place --
i really hope that all of you are doing fine ! and to hope from and talk to you soon !!
i really miss yoU !
How to define "home" ?
.....
a) the house, apartment, etc. where you live, especially with your family
b) someone's or something's place of origin, or the place where a person feels they belong
c) ........ and so on
but what i find important is the last part of definition b) - the place where u feel u belong..
the other day i was lying in my bed awake and thinking about tons of things and becoming a little melancholic ..
and i thought about exactly the definition of "home" .. i saw my parents house and i felt like .. one the one hand every thing is so familiar and giving me a place to live, but on the other hand i dont feel like i belong here ..
then i thought about fulda .. its not a place i want to and i will live forever - not all the people there really mean a lot to me .. in fact there is just this one person who i know will be there for me in every situation, no matter what will happen.
so i finally came to the result that no matter how many friends i might or even might NOT have here in germany, i know that wherever you guys are that this is home, cause you are my friends, all around the world, so i have my home wherever you are !!
and i want to thank you for all that !!
Hey hey you guys !!
I know I know – it’s been like a SUPER huge and long time since any of you heard anything of me – my honest apologies for that !
I hope you’re all doing fine and having a good time !!
Here in fulda things are going straight ! my exams will start on Monday and yeah you can’t imagine – well probably at least two of you can – how much I am looking forward to when they will be finished – over – done !
My exam preparation is the worst !! you can’t believe it ..
But I will try to give my best that I don’t have to retry anything next semester
Apart from that .. I am still the same more or less – lazy, german, missing Canada and you guys !
I cant actually say anything more because in fact – nothing special and extraordinary is happening in my life here – not like in vancity when every day was a new adventure
So I just wanted to let you know that I am still alive and didn’t forget you – in fact I never will !!!
Whitney Houston - One Moment In Time :
Merry Christmas everyone ...
HEY HEY MY DEAR PEOPLE !!
Merry Christmas to you all !!
I hope you're all doing fine and having some nice days !
I know it's been a while since I wrote and I am not being connected too often these days, but well I am busy and not in front of the computer these days.
Might be, because my new life in Fulda is the perfect addition to the so far best year in my life.
I again met a couple of people that are nice and with who i feel comfortable.
Canada helped me a lot to start a life here in Germany thanks to all the people I met there and who helped me to feel comfortable.
so life is going great for me - right now I am staying in my parents' place but next friday i will return to fulda !
i hope you guys are doing fine !!
take care
I wanna go home ...
... and with that place I call home I don't mean my parents' place, no, I mean Vancity.
Feeling this melancholy inside me and seeing the flag of Canada, of great times, of amazing memories, it makes me cry.
As beautiful as Fulda is, as nice as the people are, sometimes I just feel alone, I just want to be with all of my friends, with the ones who love me and who I love. Back to places and people where the time seemed endless and perfect.
I wanna go home ...
long long time agoooo ..
hey hey people !!! <3
how is it going all around the world ?? i know i know - it's been a long time since you heard from me and there were already people worrying about me - but i am fine, life is going on - christmas is coming closer and the only thing i LOVE right now is the german christmas, but today - when we were decorating our apartment for christmas i got a little bit sad, because i was like "damn - one year ago i was in vancity !!"
how are you guys ? let me know how you are ! - it's been a looooong long time ..
but i am kinda busy these days, not nescessarily with university, but with stuff - like all my weekends are completely full - this one for example i will go to a christmas fair with a couple of friends which is in another city - and from there i will go home which was a very spontaneuos idea of me - so the saturday i will be in my homeplace with my friend and i will go for a coffee with another friend and meet my brother and, if the weather is good, we will go to the zoo and sunday morning back to fulda - what a stressfull weekend 
the weekend after - well i should first say something about december 6th, because i dont know how it is in your countries, but here in germany we're celebrating the 6th of december as well let's call it the "st. nickolas" - day where you have to clean your shoes, out them in front of your door and if you were nice and if your shoes are clean then you get little presents, nothing big, just small things. - so the weekend of the 6th of december our "asshole" - roommate is going home so we have a free weekend - without assholy comments and stuff
then the following weekend my parents might come and we have a party here in the place and THEEEEN the last weekend before christmas my brother is coming for the weekend and december 22nd i am going home eventually to celebrate christmas with my family - same as new year's eve i guess -- pretty quiet .. dunno yet ..
well yeah so i will try to write once more and to be connected more frequently than i am right now !!
take care my friends and tell me how you are ! - i miss you guys so much and i love you guys !!!
hey hey hey my dear people !!
long time no write - or something like that - but well things are getting more and more busy so its less and less time being spent in front of the PC --
right now i am in my parent's house until tomorrow - well tomorrow we're going to my sister, because yesterday was my nephew's birthday so we will visit them tomorrow and then saturday night i will go back to fulda - gotta go now !!
the "west packet" ..
.. (free translation by me - german: Westpaket )
well .. as you probably know there's not always been one whole, united germany - nazis, world war bla bla - germany lost, the Allies* seperated it in (i think originally 4 - french, english, american, russian - occupation zones - and later the french english and america became one) 2 parts - the western and the eastern - the "american" and the "russian" - like the structure of the countries were completely different, but i think most of u know ! - anyway .. families got seperated, because they lived some kilometres away from each other .
and then u can reduce it to - the people in western germany had everything they wanted whereas in eastern germany people had to for example line up when there were bananas - they didnt have bananas all the time - to get a car (a so called "Trabant" - it sometimes took 10 years.
and so the families who lived in the west sent the so called "westpakete" to their eastern relatives with all the stuff that was impossible to get there (well of course the stuff they were allowed to send).
yeap that was my short/ superficicial flight into history to explain WESTPAKETE
It's been a while ...
... and i would lie if i said that i was too busy to write !
as i already told some of you - i just didnt feel too "contacty" .. i gotta check if that word exists - cambridge dictionary says no, but well who would mind ?? - i dont
ya .. the last days/ weeks/ whatever were rather .. strange somehow. a blend of good and less good and almost bad feelings - even though its nescessary to say that actually thinking of vancity - times cant make a bad feelin, but a nostalgic !
yeah on the one hand i feel surprisingly good here in fulda !
nice people in general (apart of the typical germans ) and a cute town and well it even looks a bit international
but at the same time i have been thinking a lot about vancity and you guys !
seeing the pictures of those times on my screensaver - it just makes me sad somehow !!
but well i cant go on with all that whining over and over again, can i ??
let me rather talk a bit about my current life here !
last week we had the first semester party and well i did well - embarrassing myself 
but well - apart of screaming through the whole place that i am from eastern germany and blaming my roommate for being responsible for me being drunk .. nothing special so
and the next day there was a rock party - which was okay, but only because of the music, the people were so so - from cool ones to a lot of those who went there for whatever reason .. but it was good, even though we were only 3 girls !!
university itself - is going pretty okay ! so far
okay i gotta go now - it's lisa's birthday tomorrow - so stefan, nora and i will go to get a present (a west - packet) - i will explain that later